harder than it seems

(Warning: A co-worker introduced me to Jack's Mannequin today. It's the front man from Something Corporate. I am mostly loving it and since it's more than a little emo I am feeling a little sad and that is the place that this blog is coming from. Don't say I didn't warn you.)

Life is hard. This has been something that I have been learning.
Moving home has proved to be harder than I thought.
Sometimes I feel like moving home was giving up. Two steps forward one step back.
And sometimes it seems like things are finally start to fall into place.
The casual summer job has turned into a full time position and I really enjoy all the people I work with. But I guess I just wonder what I am doing with my photography and with my education. I didn't plan on four years of post secondary for a job in retail. And sometimes I wonder if it's possible to survive without discounted shoes.
I just wish that I had all the answers.
The other thing that I guess I forgot is that everyone else moved on while I was away. I didn't forget this, I put the wrong numbers into my calculations when I was making my decision.
Like most, I get lonely sometimes. I need more friends. Would you like to be my friend?
Right now I really need someone to see Eat, Pray, Love with me. I have never been to a movie by myself and I am not quite sure it is something I am ready to do. I always like to make commentary during movies and it would be hard to do that by myself. Or I am not sure the people around me would appreciate it.
I guess I am also afraid of being judged. I don't know why other opinions seem to matter so much.
And I also don't know if I could eat an entire bag of popcorn by myself. Or maybe the bigger issue is that I would be able to eat an entire bag of popcorn by myself.
Suddenly, but not surprisingly I am craving popcorn.
But once again I am faced with the issue of being judged for being in the movie theatre by myself.